Lizzo Explains How Watching TV Made Her Insecure

The rapper explains how a lack of inclusion on television and magazines impacted her growing up.

(AllHipHop News) Lizzo wondered what was wrong with her growing up because she looked completely different from everyone else on television and in magazines.

The “Truth Hurts” star’s struggle to find famous role models as a kid really messed with her head and made her feel like she didn’t belong.

“I would watch things on television and I would look at magazines and I would not see myself,” she told British Vogue. “When you don’t see yourself, you start to think something’s wrong with you. Then you want to look like those things and when you realize it’s a physical impossibility, you start to think, ‘What the f##k is wrong with me?’

“I think that took a greater toll on me, psychologically, growing up than what anyone could have said to me.”

While she’s really enjoying her success now, the 31-year-old still struggles with anxiety and is grateful her fame didn’t happen when she was younger.

“I think if I was 21 right now, I would not be able to maintain this lifestyle without having major anxiety and panic attacks,” she admits.

And though she still struggles to keep it together sometimes, she harnesses her nerves to take her performances to the next level.

“When I get really, really anxious before a show, I just go harder and harder and harder when I’m performing and I just go crazy,” she shares. “I don’t know why, but my anxiety sometimes fuels who I am as a performer and who I am as an artist.”